I beg your pardon for all of the promises I’ve said to you but none of it has been fulfilled. This post might not be the post you are waiting for, but I will post this one as one of the amends of my promises. I know I promised to tell the story about my experience with the kids in soccer camp this year as I had experience 2 years ago.

Here I will only post the pictures I have, taken by a very good photographer. Hopefully you can see the joy and happiness of togetherness, love, passion, and sharing with others. Like people say: “picture tells a thousands story”

Practice time

Happiness in togetherness

"Trust Fall Game" They are trustworthy

Play, compete, and celebrate

Click on the figure if you want to see real size image.
One of my friend also made the video about this camp. You can see it on the video below.

All credits to Tanya and John Choi for the pictures and video.

Again, I don’t know whether this is enough as my amend to you my friends. See you again.

God bless you always.

It’s me

Pardon me for being so absent from this story of mine lately. Seems I have to arrange all the things that pop up in my mind randomly. I have a lot of story but I have only few words. Besides, it fells to unpack my story becomes somehow difficult recently. Probably I have to readjust my heart and mine, so that I can unpack the story I have. I don’t know how.
I’ll try as soon as possible to write again and please be patient to me. okay.
Wait for my story in Soccer Camp 2011 like I had 2 years ago.

It’s me.

It’s me

Dear friend.
I am struggling to be the better me. I’ve been wandering around but found nothing. Being good has been terribly hard, even more being good isn’t enough. I have to put humble before it. But you know, I hardly failed every time I try being good. Sometimes I think that my resolve isn’t strong enough to push me forward, and my faith isn’t big enough for being the force that pull me up from my fallen.

‘What should I do?’ or ‘what had to be done?’ are the questions that has covering my head lately.

Yeah, one time I will think, I will do this so I can be like this. I will do that so I will more understand this tricky field. Or I will arrange this and that so I can be more aware for what to be done first and what should be leave behind. But in other time, I am doing nothing but playing around.

Dear friend,
I am not asking you to understand the situations I’m in now. I just want to write down the things that has spinning around lately on my head. In fact, I’ve tried but failed. Then came along the guilty feeling where I am usually facing difficulty to handle it.

I know, you might say: “you can do it!” or “just hang on there, every situation has its own solution” or “little by little you will overcome it.”

I do, I do. I want to believe that I can do it too. However, things are not recently friendly with me. I have to face it by the way.

Anyway. Thanks for being my friend. I know you’ve tried so hard to be good. So am I. But let’s put humble before it.

It’s me.

4.11 am

What’s new?

It’s been 2 years since I came Korea for pursuing my dream – though I’m not sure about it now. Come to Korea without really know what will you do for study or what exactly will you learn, certainly will lead you facing several task that you really not understand or in short you have no idea what you are doing.
I have passed 2 years in study, did this and that in the experiment, wrote this and that for conference, spoke this and that too in conference, seminar, etc. But still I’ve accomplished nothing in terms of achievements. I know what should be done while doing this, but still I don’t really understand what it means.
As the second year of my study, I was forced to do more than the first year I was here. Not only because my Professor had asked me to do many things but even for myself, I want to do something that I can accomplished. In the end, I’ve done things but accomplished nothing. What exactly should I do and what exactly the condition I have to is the thing that still running in my head.
I found myself drown and moreover I don’t even know what my goal now. I have separated from the world I engage to and have astray from the path I should have to. Therefore, I am not what I want and I’m not what I should be. I need a turning point, but still I am walking and running on the circle path that has drown me up to now. I need help.
Two years has passed and more years to come. I need a change. I need a helper. I want to be the best of me. I must do what have to be done. Yes, I need my God. I have separated from Him, I have pushed Him away from my heart, I have done terrible things that hurt His heart. I just too scared; I am a hypocrite after all.

Hope for tomorrow

As I have promised to you in my last post, I will write here something I want to have or I want to do in this year. So this is it. I really hope All of this wishes will come true in the end. But If not, at least I have to do my best. To copy what Monkey D. Luffy said in one of One Piece series: “If I die when pursuing it, so be it. If you risk your life maybe you can create the future”.

I know, these resolution or wishes seem to be difficult especially in my first wish. Moreover I’ve been struggling lately to win but still I failed and fell. I think I’ve chose not to obey and it’s more even difficult for me. You know, become a disciple in Christ is always difficult but that makes it worth and in the end, if I can finish my race I will be very happy.
So, after several days of thinking my resolution this year and what wishes I have, I write down here for you my friends. I hope you will remind me of everything I’d wrote here if you can help me.

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21

“Plans are established by seeking advice; so if you wage war, obtain guidance.” Proverbs 20:18

So, let it be what will come.

Evening shall become my friend

It’s me

New Year has come

It’s a good time for you and I to make plans for the whole year or probably in the next few years ahead. Me myself is trying to wrap up all the things in my mine and put in into reality. I will tell you later the things I want to accomplish and the things I want to have along the 2011. Later.

Sunrise 2011

Still stay tune my friend

Oh ya, before then I have to say Merry Christmas too although it’s passed but I did not say it before I’d better say it. Since also, Christmas will stay forever in our heart because He had born in our heart.

See you fellas.

It’s me

This story a lil bit mellow since it refers to the movie I gonna tell you. So grab your handkerchief or tissue close to you while you are reading this post.

I’ve seen this movie before years ago. I was watched it late at night while still in Indonesia. I guess I could not sleep at that time. The habit that still follow me till now, moreover it becomes worse and worse. For the same reason as usual, I could not sleep early last night. I tried to finish my presentation for today lab meeting. Unfortunately, I could not finish it because of the video of my experiments result could not be opened in my laptop. My laptop using Windows 7 and also it’s in Korean. Another method that I am trying how to learn Korean but still not shown any good progress. So you may guess what the real problem is.

Back to the movie.
This movie is the movie that can make me sob like a little child crying for something he/she wants to be granted. Though it’s a cartoon, somehow it’s can touch my deepest feeling and push my tears off from my eyes. As the result, last night I was cried back in my blanket and tried to wipe it out of my face. For the second time I watched this movie still for the second time I cried after watched it.
I just don’t know why, but the reality I cried.

For sort, it is best for you to watch it on your own.
You may have different perspective than mine. I think is same for every situation, everybody has their own perspective according to their life of value and also their experience.

“When you’ve tried so hard to do the good things but still others don’t acknowledge it or they are even more see it as a play up for something, then it’s time for you to withdraw and give your heart a pleasant of its own”

I just wanna go home now, I hope tomorrow will be better. I had setup all the things for the experiment.

Oh passion, tenacity, and friends come to me!!!! Come to your master!!! hahahaha….

I want to finish everything this week. I just don’t want to be a looser.

아짜~아짜~~화이팅!!!~~~

Okay, it’s came up.

My friend, I would like to start this post with this.

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/9UM5DXT232XC.

I got this link from my friend post in Facebook. Just base on the curiosity since this friend usually likes so many things and click the like button on Facebook for every page. So, I tried to fill up the blank and upload the photo. At first I was tried to avoid the junk or something that is not good by uploading something on one website we don’t know for sure. But after I saw the video, I was so eager to repeat upload the good picture of me to this video. Actually, this is not my dream that I want it in the future, but this idea make me feel want to realize more about my dream. Also, I admire the idea of making this kind of movie. In the end, if you wanna try it just hit the link and the remaining part is on your own.

Another thing that I want to share is this link:
http://www.phdcomics.com/comics.php
*maybe the title of this post could be link list. hihihi…

Since I found this link, up to now I always eager to wait the new scene of this comic. I admire him by making this comic so real, I bet that he must be experience some of it or he might saw it in others experiences. I like this comic because maybe I have some of the scene in my real life, and the interesting thing is he make it as a humor story so we might laugh at ourselves. Whether you are a PhD student or not, this comic will make your day enjoyable.

I think I will stop here, just wanna make a quick post. I am trying to enjoy every single step that come up in front of me. I hope that you enjoy your every step too my friend. Let’s do it!!

It’s still me, and always be.

See ya.